My Album and The Story Behind The Band

I'd like to tell the story behind my album, "Hope Bleeds Eternal", and also the story behind the band, Decaying My Youth. It started way back in the summer of 2009. Rory Fleming, who happens to be my manager, Dylan Fleming, who also happens to be in my project Skyfallen, and myself got together to make some music. It turned out to be a fusion of post-rock and metal, so we called it experimental metal. When the subject of names came up, I shot the name Decaying My Youth their way. I had asked my good friend Crystal Boland about album titles for my other project, The Fall of the Heretic (now on hold), namely those related to having a hatred for mankind. Decaying My Youth was one of them, and it had stuck, not only with me, but with my bandmates as well. However, after that summer, Rory departed for college, and Decaying My Youth died out. It didn't go away completely, for like the ashes of a fire that continue to smolder, the beast lived underneath my skin, until November of 2009. At this point, my life took a very difficult turn for me, as a severe bout of depression set in, with no warning or reason whatsoever. I began to write songs about depression, death, hatred, suicide, and hatred of man and God/gods. I knew these song lyrics would not fit in with the ones in The Fall of the Heretic, so the decision was made to revive Decaying My Youth. "The Killing Game", a song about religious struggles that was originally written in the first days of the band, was rerecorded, but after various takes, I scrapped the song, and took a more moody, dark toned approach. During another late night of writing, the true meaning of the band name hit me. I was dying inside for someone I could not have, and I knew at that moment, if I didn't let go, it would eat my life away (or decay my youth). Yet still, I continued to focus my time on that person. My lyrical themes continued to grow darker by the moment, including topics such as murder, darkness, Satanism, and the apocalypse. The album, which is currently in production, is entitled "Hope Bleeds Eternal", which is a reference to the saying "hope springs eternal". It is meant to show the fact that hope will always be there, but in order to realize that it is, you have to bleed (or suffer) for it.

In my next blog, I'll explain the meanings behind each song on the album.

Thanks,
Chad